Hi guys, as you could probably tell I was missing for a long time in DA. I'm okay and stuff, but I have to admit that I need to start from the beginning my life here. I need some "fresh air" or something if that makes any sence... I will probably stop doing commissions, I noticed that it's a pressure I can't bear in order to keep drawing.
I heard that I'm not the only person who feels the same and makes a difficult decision, so I think it's not my own paranoia that I started to feel drawing as a duty. It was a long time since I enjoyed drawing and I did it for myself, as artist I am. I don't want to make hollow drawings just for money, I don't want to make a product and I don't want to sell something that is so "mine", you know, is like someone was buying my words or my feelings and making me lie... I dn't know if anybody could understand that stuff, I just can't find better words to explain myself.
I haven't drawn for some month and the fact is that it's like I don't really want to cuz I feel I'm doing it cuz I have to, not cuz I want to. It's just crazy and desperating, I had this dream of becoming a mangaka since childhood and I'm so afraid of loosing it so I want to try relaxing a bit. I don't know when I dould be able to upload something new to my gallery, but it probably will be just traditional art (my laptop is about to die or something cuz it too old, so I cannot draw using it).
I'm so sorry for not telling you guys anything for so loooong, I just tried to escape from everything related with DA.
But there's something I want to give you guys as a compensation and maybe as a therapy for me. I thought about giving drawing lessons through skype or something like that. I prefer to help people to raise their skills and solve doubts than drawing mysef. What do you think about this? Let me know your opinion below.
I would like to leave you my facebook so we can keep in contact >.0 www.facebook.com/RanYukino
See you guys!!